Tuesday, December 31, 2019

The year 2019!!!

An year with..
less reactions n more responses
less fights n more understanding
less enemies n more friends
less arguments n more silence
less happiness n more frictions
less hatred n more love

Thankful to everything and everyone who contributed, for every moment is an experience - an opportunity to introspect!!!

With each passing year, I am embracing the changes in me. The way I see, approach, handle and respond to various events in my life. This year have made me more of a silent person than ever before. To ignore some of the things around, to respond than react, to adjust and adapt, be content than complaining about the happenings. I have started giving importance to others' perspective as well before I comment on anything which was not my cup of tea earlier. I have learnt to be alone, which was unusual for me as I was in midst of beautiful hearts-my friends, before. Though it hurt at times, I am used to it that if I am left alone I can manage no matter what. Since I managed to keep my mouth shut, many a times I had peace of mind. But rarely I have given a piece of my mind as well. Happiness was not a constant companion this year, but still he managed to be with me at times. Another happiness was restarting my drawing skills, tried zenart and still keeping on doing art works. Exploring places with my dear gangs were one of the interesting things I did this year. One thing I am happily welcoming is that I am mastering the art of selfless love more and more.

Most importantly, with each passing year I am loving myself more and more, not tolerating anything and anyone who affects my dignity and self respect. 

Tuesday, December 24, 2019

There's nothing special without him..

എന്നിലെ മകളെ പൂർത്തിയാക്കിയത് - എന്റെ അച്ഛനാണ്
എന്നിലെ സഹോദരിയെ പൂർത്തിയാക്കിയത് - എന്റെ സഹോദരനാണ്
എന്നിലെ കൂട്ടുകാരിയെ പൂർത്തിയാക്കിയത് - എന്റെ കൂട്ടുകാരനാണ്
എന്നിലെ ഭാര്യയെ പൂർത്തിയാക്കിയത് - എന്റെ ഭർത്താവാണ്
എന്നിലെ അമ്മയെ പൂർത്തിയാക്കിയത് - എന്റെ മകനാണ്
എന്നിലെ സ്ത്രീയെ പൂർത്തിയാക്കിയത് - പുരുഷനാണ്

Wednesday, December 4, 2019

Unheard Voices

The best tunes had started playing
And I had grown up into a beautiful lady-
A lady with opinions, thoughts and questions
Independent and confident individual was I

Gifted with a bunch of fabulous experiences
I was writing the beautiful tale of my life
Alas! A pause to the journey over the bed of roses
And life took its drastic twist 

My neighbor was he - my childhood buddy
I never realised his hands would grab me
Crushed between his hands, I saw the beast in him
I heard few more boots and chit chats

I cried and cried but nowhere did my voice reach
I was torn apart like featherless dove
Rods, candles, drugs and what not
Every inch of my body was crushed

Severe pain drenched my nerves
Blood oozing out all through my wounds
All pain..unbearable pain is what I remember
My views were blurred and my eyes were closed forever

A corpse I am now and victim of lusty vultures
I am sleeping here peacefully cold n frozen
His lusty looks and a drooling mouth
The beast enjoyed my lifeless body

I screamed but who can hear me?
For I am lifeless and only my soul is awake
Even I had my family, friends, ambitions.. 
Even I had my dreams to capture

All my dreams were smashed..
Shattered for no mistake of mine
What mistake had I done to you
I was born a girl.. nothing else!!!

Monday, December 2, 2019

സ്ത്രീ

ഒന്നു ഉറക്കെ ചിരിച്ചാൽ
ഒറ്റയ്ക്ക് യാത്ര ചെയ്താൽ
ഇഷ്ടപ്പെടുന്ന ജോലി ചെയ്താൽ
സ്വപ്നങ്ങൾക്കു പുറകേ സഞ്ചരിച്ചാൽ
ശരിയെന്നു തോന്നുന്നത് ചെയ്താൽ
അടുക്കളയിൽ ഒതുങ്ങേണ്ടവളല്ലെന്നു പറഞ്ഞാൽ
തെറ്റിനെതിരെ ശബ്ദം ഉയർത്തിയാൽ
ആർത്തവ ദിനങ്ങളിൽ താൻ അശുദ്ധയല്ലെന്നു പറഞ്ഞാൽ
ഉടഞ്ഞു വീഴുന്നതല്ല സ്ത്രീത്വം
തന്റെ സഞ്ചാരവീഥികൾ നിർണ്ണയിക്കേണ്ടത് അവളാണ്
അവളെ നിർവചിക്കേണ്ടത് അവൾ മാത്രമാണ്

Monday, June 24, 2019

നിഴൽരൂപം

നീ എന്റെ നിഴലാവാൻ ഞാൻ ആഗ്രഹിച്ചു
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