നഷ്ടസുഗന്ധം....

ഓര്‍ക്കുന്നതില്ല ഞാന്‍ തോഴാ ... ആ നിമിഷം
നമ്മള്‍ ഒന്നായി മാറിയ ആ സുന്ദരനിമിഷം
നിന്‍ കിന്നാരങ്ങള്‍ക്ക് കാതോര്‍ത്ത
ദിനങ്ങളിലൊന്നും അറിഞ്ഞിരുന്നില്ല ഞാന്‍
നീ എന്നെ സ്വന്തമാക്കുമെന്ന്
നിലാവുള്ള രാവുകളില്‍ നിനക്ക് കാതോര്‍ക്കവേ
എന്തെ ഞാന്‍ അറിഞ്ഞില്ല നീ എന്‍ സ്നേഹനിലാവാവുകയാണെന്ന്
പൂക്കളാല്‍ നിറഞ്ഞോര സ്നേഹതാഴ്വരയില്‍ വെച്ചെന്‍
കൈ പിടിക്കവേ അറിഞ്ഞൂ ഞാന്‍
എന്നുള്ളില്‍ പ്രണയത്തിന്‍ സുഗന്ധം
എന്നില്‍ മാറ്റൊലി കൊണ്ടാതത്രയും നിന്‍ നാദം
എന്നില്‍ നിറഞ്ഞതത്രയും നിന്‍ രൂപം
ഓരോ നിമിഷവും എന്‍ മനസ്സില്‍ നിറഞ്ഞത്‌
നിന്‍ അന്തരംഗം എന്നോടോതിയ സ്വപ്‌നങ്ങള്‍ അല്ലോ
ഒടുവില്‍ ഒരുനാള്‍ മൌനമായി നീ
ഒരു മിഴിനീര്‍പൂവെനിക്കേകി എന്തെ ഓടിയകന്നു
എന്നെ തനിച്ചാക്കി അകന്നുപോയി....

concentric circles.........

"I am the center of a lot of concentric circles to which an unending radii are drawn. But never think that the center remains static forever. It will merge with the infinite space-time , the deep blue sea of love where the radii can't reach..."

This defines me better......so many concentric circles are there but r they showing any sincerity to me for being their center??? The answer is very clear..but lemme don't go into a 1 word answer... From the viewpoint of each n every circle they are benefited in one way or other....they have advantages...they remain happier, safer, calm n cool....am happy about it...no complaints nothing..let them be happy with the center....But from the center's viewpoint the very center seems to be a fool...a biiiiiiiiig fooool......

നിനക്കായ്

നിന് വഴിപ്പാതയില്
നിനക്ക് തുണയായോരുതിരി
വെളിച്ചമായണയാംഞാന്

നിന് സുന്ദരവദനം തന്നില്
താരമായി മാറും നിന് നറുപുഞ്ചിരി തന്
മുത്തായ് പൊഴിയാം ഞാന്

നിന് നക്ഷത്ര കണ്ണുകളില്
മിന്നിതിളങ്ങുമൊരു
മോഹനചിത്രമായ് പതിയാം ഞാന്

നിന് അന്തരംഗം തന്
പുസ്തകത്താളില് മയങ്ങും
സ്നേഹം നിറയും വരികളാകാം ഞാന്

നിന് ഹൃദയം കണ്ണീര്സാഗരത്തില് അലയുമ്പോള്
സ്നേഹത്തിലെഴുതിയ ഗാനംപോല്
നിന്നില് സാന്ത്വനമരുളാം ഞാന്

നിന് ജീവിതം തന്നില്
വര്ണ്ണാഭ പരത്തും
സുന്ദര നിറക്കൂട്ടാകാം ഞാന്

നിന് ആത്മാവിന് പൂങ്കാവനം തന്നില്
നീര്ചോല പോലോഴുകിയടുക്കും
സ്നേഹഭാഷണം ആവാം ഞാന്

ഒടുവില് നീ വിടപറയും നേരം
നിന്നിലേക്ക് അലിയും
സ്നേഹസുഗന്ധമാവം ഞാന്

attachment........

The word attachment…may be the word that is being used by the youth so often like ‘Im attached to him/her..’ Well the same word holds a great importance in my life. The happiest and worst moments of my life are both a means to remember n realize the essence of this word. What is actually attachment?? oops even I too don’t have a specific definition for it…I have heard many definitions given by my friends n all n ofcorse some have shocked me..hehe..Some says sharing everything..all ur thoughts n secrets is attachment..like he/she is ur another self.. well I cnt agree fully to this coz I have felt attachments to some who doesn’t know my secrets or who is another myself…bt I do believe sharing can be a part of attachment bt not sharing is attachment…I have heard some saying night talks makes ppl get attached to each other..to this also I cnt agree completely cos as far as am considered the same can work out only if the person in other end is someone special..am nt mentioning lover or something so…night talks doesn’t alwys result in the so called attachment…well some more definitions are there which made me think a lot regarding this simple word bt actually I was not able to agree fully to any of those..different ppl think differently na…bt from ma side if I say abt attachment….its something sweet as well as painful…a source to realize what love and cheating is…I believe attachment helps us realize the situations in life..helps us grow better rather than being a dumb creature….in my life am attached to only few ppl bt it doesn’t mean I love only those ppl…as far as im considered I trust others blindly so itself get attached easily too…bt often such love attachment n all results in pain..earlier I was very much attached to all my friends n that time I was made to realize the harsh reality..It was so late to recognize hoe beautifully n skillfully many of my friends took advantage of the beautiful bond of attachment…I realized this is ‘one’ possibility…But being always a bad student I couldn’t hold bak myself from getting attached to others…This time the new set of ppl showed me some other possibilities.Atlast there came asituation that I cnt tolerate anymore pains out of love,trust,attachment n such stuffs…Idecided to be in my world with the few who loves me n I trust..my dear ones..While life was going on smoothly there came a new entry..many a times I restricted myself bt atlast I got attached to that person..As we say history repeats..the outcome was same as before…But the new possibility was a great lesson for me..it made me change a loot… After a looong gap now am attached to some ppl bt this time am sure however hard they try none and nothing can let me down for....

“Feelings being frozen

My heart doesn’t ache…”

journey to thy hands..

Traveling by gutters of life

sorrows n tears scored my life

Journey along the gravel paths

leading thy rose bed paths

filled in mind the trembling tears

In my world poured darkling

like the closing eye of day

Lost in midst of darkness

feet trembled like a baby’s

Unlike the evening eye of sky

kept my eyes open the long hours

Stones from every knocked door

filled in my mind the glorious spark-

the spark to capture the world

Tears seemed frozen by time

Never as fervourless as before

I stepped against the dark-

the darkling that hastened towards me

I walked in the thorns happily

with eyes no tears n steady steps

to reach the awaiting rose bed paths

Fear never arouse in my spirit

nor did waver my mind

Learnt the beauty of life

by the darkling that filled in my days

Smoke without fire:joys without tears

paved for happiness-the sorrows; the great realization

changed the colors of my world

I loved the dark that became light for me

The eternal light that took me upto here

Here where the real light sparkles

Felt like rose the thorny paths

And I walked in and in

Now here I stand waiting for thy step-

the step to awaiting rose bed

Happily I walked in the rose bed

with joy n smiles….

I enjoy life now walking by the paths-

the two diverse paths

I watch the paths being united

n taking me to the hands of love

Eternal light of love filling my eyes

I walked to Him-to shelter under His arms…

without knowing………