attachment........

The word attachment…may be the word that is being used by the youth so often like ‘Im attached to him/her..’ Well the same word holds a great importance in my life. The happiest and worst moments of my life are both a means to remember n realize the essence of this word. What is actually attachment?? oops even I too don’t have a specific definition for it…I have heard many definitions given by my friends n all n ofcorse some have shocked me..hehe..Some says sharing everything..all ur thoughts n secrets is attachment..like he/she is ur another self.. well I cnt agree fully to this coz I have felt attachments to some who doesn’t know my secrets or who is another myself…bt I do believe sharing can be a part of attachment bt not sharing is attachment…I have heard some saying night talks makes ppl get attached to each other..to this also I cnt agree completely cos as far as am considered the same can work out only if the person in other end is someone special..am nt mentioning lover or something so…night talks doesn’t alwys result in the so called attachment…well some more definitions are there which made me think a lot regarding this simple word bt actually I was not able to agree fully to any of those..different ppl think differently na…bt from ma side if I say abt attachment….its something sweet as well as painful…a source to realize what love and cheating is…I believe attachment helps us realize the situations in life..helps us grow better rather than being a dumb creature….in my life am attached to only few ppl bt it doesn’t mean I love only those ppl…as far as im considered I trust others blindly so itself get attached easily too…bt often such love attachment n all results in pain..earlier I was very much attached to all my friends n that time I was made to realize the harsh reality..It was so late to recognize hoe beautifully n skillfully many of my friends took advantage of the beautiful bond of attachment…I realized this is ‘one’ possibility…But being always a bad student I couldn’t hold bak myself from getting attached to others…This time the new set of ppl showed me some other possibilities.Atlast there came asituation that I cnt tolerate anymore pains out of love,trust,attachment n such stuffs…Idecided to be in my world with the few who loves me n I trust..my dear ones..While life was going on smoothly there came a new entry..many a times I restricted myself bt atlast I got attached to that person..As we say history repeats..the outcome was same as before…But the new possibility was a great lesson for me..it made me change a loot… After a looong gap now am attached to some ppl bt this time am sure however hard they try none and nothing can let me down for....

“Feelings being frozen

My heart doesn’t ache…”

journey to thy hands..

Traveling by gutters of life

sorrows n tears scored my life

Journey along the gravel paths

leading thy rose bed paths

filled in mind the trembling tears

In my world poured darkling

like the closing eye of day

Lost in midst of darkness

feet trembled like a baby’s

Unlike the evening eye of sky

kept my eyes open the long hours

Stones from every knocked door

filled in my mind the glorious spark-

the spark to capture the world

Tears seemed frozen by time

Never as fervourless as before

I stepped against the dark-

the darkling that hastened towards me

I walked in the thorns happily

with eyes no tears n steady steps

to reach the awaiting rose bed paths

Fear never arouse in my spirit

nor did waver my mind

Learnt the beauty of life

by the darkling that filled in my days

Smoke without fire:joys without tears

paved for happiness-the sorrows; the great realization

changed the colors of my world

I loved the dark that became light for me

The eternal light that took me upto here

Here where the real light sparkles

Felt like rose the thorny paths

And I walked in and in

Now here I stand waiting for thy step-

the step to awaiting rose bed

Happily I walked in the rose bed

with joy n smiles….

I enjoy life now walking by the paths-

the two diverse paths

I watch the paths being united

n taking me to the hands of love

Eternal light of love filling my eyes

I walked to Him-to shelter under His arms…

without knowing………

love in todays world...a stupidity...

Ha well i dnt know whether am eligible to talk about this topic for some may think its...mmm how do i know others' thoughts..:-) Usually v all have the concept that love in schools in just an infatuation but i think there is a need to think in deep abt the so called infatuation..coz v cant jus say a relation as so cos there are so many egs around us whose school time affairs have come to reality...there may be sincere as well as just an attraction or 'vibration'..
In today's world the way for affairs are usually chats, mob n such stuffs..can v really trust such stuffs in selecting our life's friend???one among the few questions that v-youth get irritated na... I may say that such relations are almost 99% flop.. how can v be sure of other person's identity, his/her looks,behaviour n all...v know jus what they are exhibiting to us through jus their words,how to trust mere words while living in a world where its difficult even to believe our eyes???but its quite natural for many to fall in such pits..but the thing is when u realize that show the courage to get out it n get fresh again rather than wasting ur time for some 'frauds'..
What i have felt is all these relations..'love' is jus a stupidity..a real waste of time n money... a boy n gal having chit chats for inhuman limits...wasting the most precious thing in life.."time"...is it the way to show ur love...love doesnt need any show off..it jus need the concern of both individuals...but wats dat happens in the name of love??? love is something sacred n using such a word for youngsters stupidity is really heartbreaking....many may keep saying 'i love her/him'..but before u say so jus think is love or flirting the apt word....
Its better not to get into any such relations..but if it happens to be..never go blind in such relations n get into a fantasy world..this is the basic requirement i feel...when a relation breaks dont sit bak crying for that..v may feel sad that should for jus minutes or hours...tears are also precious..it must not be wated for someone..no one can say its impossible bcos its possible..100%possible...trust me i never say anything that i cant do or i havent gone through...whatever happens be cool n cheerful..always remain happy wear a smile... never ever break down n spoil our life for someone who never loved us...for today's slogan of most guys is 'use n throw'...
nb:am not a feminist...by the last statement i never mean that boys are only frauds...gals can also be so....n am jus saying about a group not as whole...

i havent learned yet...

About me..am very friendly n talkative n i trust people easily...easily means very very easily... if someone asks me about the no: of my friends..i may say its just 4 or 5...u may think is that right??such a talkative person having such a small gang of friends???but the answer is 'yes'... i had a big gang around me but it took a long time for me to realize their real intention.. but if u ask whether i have learned from such bitter experience..the answer is a big 'NO'... its my fault that even after realizing the cheating n such idiotic things, i went on trusting the ones who entered my world... i dont know the exact count of the ones who was able to win my trust n at last betrayed... i dont have any complaints to them for they have showed me that these are some of the possibilities... each one of them had their unique style n wonder how many ways to cheat a person!!! well.. now am keeping myself away from a crowd jus trusting ma dear ones but unfortunately today again i was cheated may be the most unexpected way of cheating.... ha! till a few days back that person was in my goood book but now...i dont feel angry to that person but am ashamed of myself....feeling angry to myself.....its my fault that i trusted dat one blindly.....

I often feel sad of this aspect of my character....trusting blindly the fellow ones.... i tried many a times to change this nature but i failed...but still am strongly trying but am afraid that i will fail to....instead of worrying that i cant change..i can also view in this way na...may be that God trusts me that i can face all these He is gifting me such experiences...or like He is teaching me to adjust n adapt to the situations in life...i think its better to opt this version..its always good to be positive than cursing or worrying about such things....

Even when i say all these there is a truth in front of me..."If experience is the teacher,then am a bad student.."

crazy...

Its been long that nights are my good friends..they keep me fresh n awake taking me to the crazy world...mobile,books n pc i wonder how these stuffs could make up a world for me..but thats the truth in front of me...is this track the right one or not?? i dont know but i enjoy walking through this path...till the day i have the so called regret i will travel like this...
well if u ask me abt ma neighbors i may keep ma mouth shut..speaking the truth i dont know anyone...the one who lives next door...at the same time i know people over other places even other countries n their day2day affairs...pathetic??? i wonder is dis how the youth should be??? its jus that i sit n wonder all these bt never take an initiative to change myself...this is something wrong rite??? i know many like me who r confined to their own world but i dont find any similarity bw me n those people...well ma these qualities had helped ma lot in debates relating youth,internet,orkut n all...i will be in the opposition side so i dont hav to search for points..jus think of myself its sure i will get enough n more points..hehe...
i dont regret being sticked to these stuffs coz they have taught me the real colour of todays world..orels i might be sitting in a corner thinking the world is 'beautiful'... i think...i can only say that it has taught me but whether i studied or have taken into ma mind is still a question mark.....
wat i feel is one can follow his do's n donot's bt he/she should have well defined boundary n should have a mind set that he/she wont be shattered if something wrong happens... if v r confident enough that v can overcome or withstand any downs in our life then y to rethink jus follow what our heart says....every person thinks in his own unique way their rites n rongs differs...may be a sort of the so called 'gen gap'...but i always do n say what i thinks to be right..y should i go for public's choice...y should i cater their likes n dislikes???after all its ma life n i think its me who should decide...till now i hav stikd to wat i felt to be right...
sometimes wen i get elder, attitude may change..thats not in ma hands, considering ma life at this period this is wat i feel....i never mean v should forget our responsibilities n all....n i think if v r focused..hav a well set goal then mob,orkut n such stuffs cant deviate our thoughts....