എൻറെ സ്നേഹസംഗീതം!!!

നിന്നിലെ പ്രണയാക്ഷരങ്ങൾക്കു   സ്വരമേകീടാം ഞാൻ
നിന്നിലെ സ്നേഹരാഗത്തിന്നു  ലയമേകീടാം ഞാൻ
നിന്നിലെ പ്രിയാനുരാഗത്തിന്നു  ഭാവമേകീടാം ഞാൻ
നിന്നിലെ സ്നേഹാർദ്രഗീതത്തിന്നു താളമേകീടാം ഞാൻ

Attachment!!!

Today 27.06.2012, hmm well I think today is the best day to reveal what is attachment according to me. Earlier I have made a post on attachment(http://anju-tinythoughts.blogspot.in/2010/05/attachment.html) , that time I had so many queries about what attachment is. I couldn’t make out what exactly is attachment as people gave different definition to it. Two years later, now I am able to give a definition for what actually is attachment. I feel attachment is nothing but the feeling of possession even when we don’t possess it anymore. I was able to say goodbye to many stuffs and persons in my life but I have never had such a feeling before. The moment I bid bye to those stuffs that was the end. But now even after I had lost something which I held precious I am not able to forget or wind up everything. And I believe its because of that 10 letter word. Yeah Im sure, its attachment that makes me think of it every time, which is not making me angry towards those stuffs. Im happy that at last I could find a satisfactory definition for attachment. May be again when years pass by-when age hugs me up, my definition may change but for now I believe attachment is true love..true dedication even when its out of our hand.

For You!!!

God picked you out for me

for He knew that....

I would love you the best....

I would care you the best....

I would understand you the best.....

And I would give myself to you....

Passing by the bamboos....

Started off with a new sem today…1 more year left in my campus. New classrooms..new subjects..new faculties...:) First we were directed to our senior’s classroom and we all were extremely happy for getting that classroom, but that happiness didn’t last too long, the very next moment we were moved to the classroom near to the department...:( Well a  difference is there this time, many of the familiar faces- my seniors are no more in that campus sharing their pranks..mm I didn’t miss them at all during the normal class hours or the break times when I used to see them the whole last year…but in the evening  when the college bus passed those bamboos..yeah I missed them a loot…the whole last sem it was a routine for me to check there to find those familiar faces-in fact my seniors, my friends…to silently bid bye behind a smile…but today that place was left vacant..no one to have chit chats there…:( its among them  I have found some ‘coool minds’ in the campus.. some good friends and some mere seniors  and ma dearest friend too…its really a new experience for me for I haven’t got attached to any of my senior batches yet….it was within a short time that the title ‘strangers’ changed to ‘seniors’ and later transformed to ‘friends’!!! Though I could find 2 of my friends in ma next seat..mmm somewhere I missed those sweethearts..:(

MISS  YOU BROS!!!

LOVE YOU TOO!!!

Virginity is not a dignity, but lack of opportunity....

Few years before when my friend told me this statement i find it difficult to agree and i argued a bit. Though i was convinced to a certain extend that time itself, i couldn't swallow it completely. But now when i am put to a new environment and when i came to know the things around me i feel i should agree to it fully. earlier too many people put forth arguments supporting the statement but that time i couldn't accept it fully because i never knew such gals personally other than 'stories'. And i strongly believe in these kind of topics, we shouldn't trust unless we know things clearly. And now i see girls n boys 'enjoying' life in all means. I really doubt is love an another word for sexual relation or not?? because that is what am able to see around me. Once classrooms were considered as a holy place, but now we should be careful while opening a closed classroom,. In many colleges during tech fests which lasts three or four days, people could find condoms and such stuffs thrown  in the campus corners. Its sad that students are turning out classrooms to be a place for such activities and i think its better not to open any closed classroom without making any noise why to have a 'free show'. i guess its better to have cams in every class at least then such nonsenses can be avoided na. Enjoying vacation with your lover in resorts and all, when they plan on such things at least for a moment why cant they just think of their family- their parents??? I am sure these children are never gonna succeed in their life going for such craps. There will be people asking me why u have to bother its one's choice?? To those people let me ask back a question. Are we all Indians?? Is this our culture?? Have an affair go have sexual relation, is it our culture??Are we taught like that?? The ones who go for these things will surely justify their acts in one way or other but however hard i try i couldn't find any justification for these acts. Among the girls whom i know very well now, majority of the gals who remain virgin are the ones who didn't get an opportunity yet, sorry to say but thats the truth in front of me.Only few are the ones who boldly said  NO to such things. There was an incident which made me feel pity n at the same time time hatredness to the guys. The way a guy begged for atleast a 5 minute sex chat even after hearing all the shout outs from the girl. Isn't he ashamed to behave in such a way. oops it was horrible, a guy should never do so, who knows maybe he is just another spineless creature, lol. From a school, some students were dismissed and the offence was like they were found in an unhealthy situation inside the bus during free period and their age..that was the thing that made me sad. Even in such younger stage what all these children are doing and i strongly believe internet does have an influence for such acts. All use to complaint about bangalorian life, why to go till bangalore, just look around you, you may find many worser things than that. Its 1 year back only i realized how dangerous your roommate can turn out to be. we can never be sure about the people around us, being friends we allow them to take our snaps and all, who knows they wont misuse it?? Still i remember that beautiful gal who was just 17 or 18 years old who brought all troubles to her roommates and later got dismissed from the college. It was difficult for many of us to accept those things in the first go, later on we understood life is not as beautiful as we see and how many pits are awaiting us. What that matters is how you handle things, how you hold up your mind. Now a days its seen that  its a shame to say that you are still  virgin after being into a love relation. See how the attitude of youngsters have changed. If one says he/she is neat in their relation, the response of their friends will be like aren't you ashamed to say this, then why you are into a relation, without sex what sort of love and all craps. The friends are also having an important role in spoiling others i must say, but it does have an another side, if a friend among the gang says against this no one is gonna listen him/her. If u have a scorpio/bolero and Rs.2000 in your hand you can have a beautiful girl from XXXX(School name), this was the comment made by one of my friends. This was the comment i heard around 6 years back and i wonder what will be the condition now. Then comes another group spirituality through sexuality!!! oops still i cant digest it and never i will, its better i don't go more into that stuff. what all justifications people bring for getting into a sexual relation. Sex is part of one's life as important as any other feelings, but these days its been given more emphasis that too in a wrong sense, i feel it should be felt with its sanctity rather going for these kinda idiotic acts which gives you temporary pleasure. Friends should be for one's goodness, be careful when you choose your friends and also parents must see that your child is not away from you..beyond your reach. Parents should know what their child is doing, where he/she is going, who all are his/her friends, but it never means they should be chained like hell.  By this i never want to say that 100% are like this but sorry to say the majority is. 

പ്രണയമഴ

ആദ്യമായ്  പ്രണയം  പങ്കുവെച്ചനാളില്‍
കേട്ടു മഴ തന്‍  ആര്‍ദ്രതാളം
പ്രണയം  പൂത്തുലഞ്ഞ  നാളുകളില്‍
അറിഞ്ഞു  മഴ  തന്‍  സ്നേഹസാമീപ്യം
മൗനമായ്  യാത്ര പറഞ്ഞകന്ന  നാളില്‍
അറിഞ്ഞു  മഴ  തന്‍  നേർത്തഭാവം
വര്‍ഷങ്ങള്‍ക്കിപ്പുറം ഞാന്‍  എന്‍  പ്രിയന്  കാതോര്‍ക്കവേ
കേട്ടു മഴ തന്‍  ലാസ്യതാളം

Fake Call....

Last December while ma 1st sem exams were going on i got a call from ma classmate....actually she had discontinued the course by then.....n i was really surprised to have a call from her at that time of the day.....as soon as i attended the call i felt a change in her tone n for the sake she asked about exams n all n then she came to the matter....she asked whether i gave her number to any guys..mm well i never give any gals number to any1 even to gals unless i take their permission...n when i told her no she was telling like dont lie n all such craps n it annoyed me a little...what am gonna gain by giving her num to anyone...well at last i could convince her that its not me and i asked about "that" call....the thing was like she got a call from a guy studying in ma college n told many craps to her n introduced himself as 1 of our senior...n he told i gave him her number....at that point of time i was like..i had the anger to slap that guy..n i felt such an idiotic senior or what..all such thoughts came to ma mind....at that time i knew only 1 or 2 seniors n this name was unfamiliar so i just contacted 1 of ma friends n i came to know yeah thats ma senior but that person also told he is not such a guy, he will never do such nasty things in his life...well i got confused whats happening....at last thought its better to trace the number so i took his number n i came to know he is not ma senior but unfortunately he knows almost all PG students n that stupid had taken advantage of that...well if he wanna flirt y he want to do it in other's name...am not against flirting but at least show minimum decency while flirting too:) y to spoil your friend's image??? if he had done any good deed in his friend's name its ok..but doing all such ***** that too in cost of other 1s character?? cant justify it any way....came to know its like his hobby to have fun with gals when he gets bored look for another....i donno how he see gals..just as an instrument for his pleasure or what??What guys like him think if a guy is bit handsome any gal would fall for him or what...there r may gals like that but never see everyone through the same eye....nasty stupid guy..thats all i have got to tell about him....well after all those things, this sem i came to know that senior n as all said he is a pavam i should say n am sorry for feeling bad about such a guy.....now whenever i happen to see the other guy from college...i donno how irritated i feel...all i can say is if u wanna do anything whether good or bad at least show the boldness to reveal your identity if u don't have that much guts too then better............